Thinking of positive things I like here since I'm feeling stuck. I like the sunroom.

I don't spend a lot of time here since the heat doesn't work in this part of the house...I like sitting in here in the morning before sunrise and how the room gradually gets lighter. I keep the blinds closed bc there's neighbors on two sides but whatever. It has a 90's feel to it, idk. The cat stuff will probably go back in the living room once the xmas tree gets packed away.

I don't know if I can mess with the settings somehow and get more true-to-life lighting on pictures. The room isn't really glowing that pink. Also grass and trees show up VERY bright green. I've seen people complain that some purples don't show up as vibrant on phone cameras so that's weird too.

I've been reading and doing whatever out in the living room while they have the xmas lights still up. Been watching X-files and that Freddy Krueger show from the 80's. I guess I don't really like my bedroom even though there's nothing wrong with it besides that it's still trashed from my going through things to take to goodwill which I haven't woken up early enough to do yet... I think I feel bummed out that there's two nice huge windows side by side but I have to sleep during the day so it has to be dark and I can't put plants on the sills. It's a big room but it's just...off. Maybe the way my furniture is placed is making the vibe weird but I just don't care for it and there's not a good reason. Since I'm on nights I have the downstairs to myself, and I don't feel like I'm getting in anyone's way even when I'm sometimes up during the day but it's nice to definitely not feel like I'm bothering anyone. I haven't been cleaning much to help out bc I don't want to make too much noise, and a few times I've done the dishes they've been in the dishwasher and someone unloads them thinking that they were clean :(

And since most of the clutter is books that I'm going to donate, I'm trying to think how at least I have plenty of time to read (since I can't do anything else at night) and I'm doing good at reading books that I actually own and feeling okay about getting rid of a lot of them once I'm done. I'm trying to be realistic about how I don't go back and re-read most things and that even if something is good, I hope someone else gets it for cheap from the thrift store and enjoys it. I'm going to cut down on reading too since I don't want to just do the same thing all the time. I need another hobby.

I've hit the 3 month mark at this job and I really, really hope I can find another one by next October. I know you don't have to hit the 1 year mark to leave a job but I'd like to stick to that. Not really bc I hate it. Everyone is still really nice and I want to stay positive about that part.

The light blocks are when I work, grey I have off. And I only get one week of vacation, it's 40 hours, and the shifts are all 12. And no sick time till I hit the year mark. Incredibly lame but I didn't ask about this during the interview bc I've never had a job that does things that way! Even at my last job when we were on  36/48 hr weeks and had SEVEN days off in a row each month in addition to other days off here and there, we still had two weeks and a week of sick right off the bat. So I can still take two days off, like the 21st and 22nd, and that makes 7 days off in a row that I'd get off, and I think we get a day or two of personal leave which is still not a lot, but you can sort of combine those and technically have 2 weeks off a year after the first year. So after the second year when you get 80 hours off, you could manage almost 4 weeks off.