I really want to take a day trip but I can't because of this schedule. This is a bar in Cove Haven (from the merchmotel IG, not my pic).

From the website, not my pics

There's this really neat vintage motel that is on the way to my relative's in WV but it's not that far into the drive so I've never stayed there. I really want to now since it's still open and so many things have closed in the last few years...

It does get to me that I have 2 3-day weekends off a month and I can't do anything. I can't seem to flip my sleep schedule around on a days notice any more either, so I would have 2 days off in theory on "daylight hours". I'm taking less unisom but I want to not have to feel like I need a downer to sleep and caffeine or something when I wake up. I don't want to work five days a weeks and spend extra time driving but it might be healthier, idk. I'm staying away from energy drinks. Had two days off, then I work two days starting this afternoon then 3 day weekend. I slept almost all day yesterday, tried to get up earlyish to "flip" my schedule a bit bc I had to take my car in today bc something got recalled on it and I cancelled the appointment last week bc I was so tired I couldn't get out of bed. Took some of that Charlotte's Web stuff I got and napped around midnight then stayed up all day. So I had a day to myself pretty much but also wasted it bc I felt groggy. Came home after getting the car done and slept then woke up, watched Unsolved Mysteries and got out of bed to do laundry about 1. Wow, what a day. That's another thing, I don't want to always feel tired, I want normal hours and to not force myself to be awake or to do things. 

I complain a lot but I'm trying to stay positive in that my basic needs are met, I'm saving money, and this is just "for now". But there's been a lot of years where my job is just "for now" and I don't feel like I have a life because of it. I'm really considering moving out of state to somewhere I'd like to try out like New York or California (and transfer this job bc there's other locations in those states). It's expensive here and there's nothing to do at night. I was messing around with the calculator seeing how much money from selling my house I'd have to blow to live somewhere decent since I don't think I could live on one person's income in those states even if this job is pretty good, just for a year even.