Did...not do good (again) at flipping my sleep schedule around, from night to day this week. Had today off and I took half a unisom last might but I woke up at like 1am and couldn't get back to sleep for a few hours. I don't understand those "tips" for getting back to sleep when they're like "get up and do something in the meantime!" Cause, ahhhhhh, no. I did look at my phone some but I didnt feel like doing that, I felt like sleeping, bc I was tired, but I couldn't sleep. So then eventually at 9 something in the morning I woke up and was very very groggy feeling the whole day. So my plan of getting to sleep early at 7ish last night, which I did do, failed and by getting up at 9 I lost 5 hours out of my day (I wanted to get up at 4am since I get up for work then) and I hate feeling tired and not being able to sleep or having to stay up to not throw everything off. Plus some other stuff today did not help my mood at all. I don't like how people, especially my mom--no offense, say that you have to *force* yourself to get through it and do what you have to do when I just want to not feel bad and actually feel like doing things and have a slight bit of energy and focus to do them. I do not want to force myself I want to want to do things, not lie down.

my brain is going to leak out my ears (looking at ai art accounts by accident)